I've got a new hobby...

it's called work. It seems that someone at the Oakwood Kroger quit Monday and who do they call to cover for her?....Yeah that's right...me. Do you think I said no? Of course not. So anyway, there's my new hobby.

Well I was just watching my daily dose of Felicity and for once the episode kinda spoke to me alittle. Felicity was having to say goodbye to Ben because she had taken an internship for the summer instead of going back with him to their home town. So she in a way chose herself over Ben. So if you think about it I chose being here over Daniel. In the episode she was talking to her teacher about him leaving and the teacher said "By you chosing yourself over a man that you love so dearly shows that you're growing." Felicity's responce was "I wish growing didnt hurt so much." Which would be my response. I'm still dealing with Daniel being gone and I think I'm doing surprisingly well. I get alittle sad every once and a while but I just remember that he's not going to be there forever and that he loves me. He loves me even when I'm hormonal or when I'm lecturing him about something that doesnt matter. He still loves me and he's coming back.

Well anyway, work is going well. Its work. I got to put some implants in today which was really neat. Tomorrow I got to put 7 veeners on which is exciting probably not to you but it is to me. To see the beginning of the persons teeth and then to see the outcome and to see them smile because of something that you did. That's awesome. Well I'm going to go iron my scrubs for tomorrow and I'll write more later.

Crazy day..

Today was a day I definitely was glad I took my B12 vitamin and drank some caffeine. We had two operatories running non stop and I was running constantly. It was crazy! I was actually surprised that I got to go home on time.

Anyway, I'm still adjusting to Daniel being gone. Yeah I miss him but I'm always going to miss him. But it's important for him to do this. Not just for us but for him. I think this time apart will be good for us.

Not much else to report. Not alot going on in my life at the moment. I go to work, I come home, do some laundry and some dishes. Then I watch some tv and wait for Daniel to call. Then I go iron my scrubs and go to bed and do it all over again the next day. Exciting life huh?

My Dad is being extrememly annoying. I love my Dad to death. But for Labor Day my parents are going to Gatlinburg for a mini vacation. My mom has never been to Dollywood so she wants to go. Well I went to Gatlinburg (at least thats what I tell people :) ) for my senior trip and I've been to Dollywood. I dont mind going back to Gatlinburg. Especially if it's snowing or near Christmas time. But I definitely mind going back to Dollywood. It's like an amusement park honoring Dolly and her massive "big doggies" (martha's description of big boobs). So anyway my Dad keeps asking me "Is Daniel coming home for Labor Day? Did you ask off for Labor Day?" First of all I have to work Labor Day weekend because I WORK EVERY WEEKEND. So no I havent asked off. What does it matter if Daniel comes home I'm still staying home because I have to work. Even if I had known my parents were taking a trip and I was invited to go a month ago. I still wouldnt ask off because I just took vacation from kroger and it's too much to ask for another weekend off. Woo....sorry I had to rant. My Dad for some reason doesnt think I need to be alone. He's always asking me how I'm doing and if I need to talk. Honestly I would be alot better if people stopped asking me how I was doing because it just reminds me of why they're asking me.

Okay I'm done ranting. It must be close to pms time or something because I'm not usually that irritated about stuff like that. Also I can cry on command. Yeah...too much information about my pms problems.

Well I'm going to go watch some incredibly lame tv.

Some news to report...

Daniel left early this morning for Mobile. Not exactly sure when he's coming back to visit. Since he doesnt have a car at the moment it'll probably be a while. Surprisingly enough my parents are actually taking the extra effort to be nice to me today. Mom came in this morning and asked me if I was okay. Of course as soon as she asked I started crying again. She sat down by my bed and said that it'll be worth in the end and that I can always go down there and visit him and spend the weekend there. My father told me a while back that I would not being going to Mobile by myself. But Dad usually goes along with whatever Mom says so I guess I can go visit him. Mom is trying pretty hard today to make me smile but honestly I just dont feel like it. Not much to smile about at the moment.

Last night was kind of sad. I kept thinking how I couldnt believe he was moving to Mobile and I was staying here. Yeah I could move down there but it's not financially smart for me to do that. I can live up here, rent free, and save money for me and Daniel. All the extra money I get is going into my savings account. It's the smart thing to do...and painful thing to do.

In a couple of hours I'm suppose to go out my friend Ashley. She said she was going to try and cheer me up even if it killed her. I wonder what kind of flowers she wants at her funeral. Write more later.

Three and a half years....

is what Daniel and I turned today. Somedays it doesnt feel like its been that long. Then some other days it feels like it's been 50. So what has been going on with me? I've been working. Actually today I was off. Daniel and I went to see a free concert to see "The Afters." They were really good. They were playing so loud that you couldnt really make out some of the words. But I enjoyed the concert. The played "Beautiful Love" which is one of my favorites. Write more later.

Welcome to the Real World

Well I'm officially out of school and I've started my full time job. Everyone is real nice. I feel comfortable in my surroundings which in my opinion makes me better at my job.

So how did my first day of work go.....it was pretty good. The assistant that was gone on vacation for two months came back and brought presents if you can call them that. She has a rock garden and for special occasions she'll paint you a rock. So I got a rock that said WELCOME on it with some flowers painted on it. She gives people rocks for birthday and christmas presents too. What kind of person gives a rock for a present? Yeah thats a stupid question....a cheap one. So anyway I had to act like I really liked it and thought it was really neat. I should've been an actress.

The rest of the day went pretty well. We werent too busy. We had some emergency patients but nothing i couldnt handle. We did a few crown preps which wasnt too bad. Which means in about a week all we'll be doing is crown deliveraries. Which are easy if the lab doesnt screw up the model or if the cross bite is ok. Yeah i know you didnt understand that last part but believe me its important.

I'm still working at Kroger. Yeah I guess I'm just determined not to have a off day. Actually I'm just working the weekends now so it isnt that bad. I would love just not to quit but they dont have anyone to replace me (because i'm such a great tech....not...well maybe). I dont mind working the weekends because its really not that hard. We're not that busy and I still have time at night to go out and do whatever. The way I look at it is if I was off I'd be sitting at home doing nothing. At least this way I'm sitting around making money.

Daniel and I had a really busy weekend last weekend. Friday we went to the rocket center and saw plumb and krystal mires in concert. Then Saturday we went to unity day thing at big spring park and saw some great fireworks. I've never seen fireworks like those. I had to look away alot. Then Sunday we spent 7 hours out in the hot sun watching the hunstville stars lose and then watching toby mac and point of grace sing. I was really pleased with the concert. I just wish I could've had a better view. But I'm glad I got to go. We also heard Scott Dawson preach. Alot of people got saved that night. I'm just hoping that it wasnt a "in the moment saving." I hope it was real.

Write more later.

Trying to adjust

Okay tomorrow is my last day of school and it's alittle un-nerving. I've always gone to school. Now I have to stop and get a full time job and be a grown up. I'm not complaining about that. I'm 20 years old it's time for it. Pretty soon I'll be getting married (no date set yet) and then having kids( dont worry not for a long while). It's just kinda crazy. I dont mind having to get a full time job because i've basically been working 2 for the past 8 months. I'm ready to get married so I'm ready for that adjustment. It's that all of this is happening at one time not gradually. Thats what throws me for a loop. It's like "Hey Ashley handle all of this at one time, let's see if you crack." Well honestly I dont think I can handle it half the time. Someone asked me today what I was going to do to celebrate finishing school...my answer was "take a nap."

Update

I have a job now at Dr. Peake's office. I start full time on August 8th. I'm pretty excited. I really like the people I'll be working with. Anyway I'll write more later.